My Sincere Apology

I'm Writing to you, a sincere apology.

for showing the world, a man's true identity.

though you might have been distraught, or even more ashamed.

It meant the world to me, that you were also feeling my pain.

I can't put to words, all the feelings that I felt for you,

but know it in your heart that this one is sincere and true.

Oh how I wish to embrace this feeling directly to you,

just to see a little glimpse of your reaction, was it all true?

but it seems that wish has been rejected,

you're now too far for me to see, to touch, let alone to feel.

Our only way?

When we part ways

That's when reality sets in the air.

When I see you fade away

That's how much you've been erased.

This world that we live in knows no mercy, only cry

...for this kind of love only exist in another world that is not ours.

What do I do to make you mine,

When the whole world seems to block you out of my mind.

Too many restriction, I cannot comprehend.

The world that we live in just don't understand.

I could go on and on for what seem to break our ways,

but what I really want to know is "Is this really our only way?"

A closer look

Taking one more closer look

that was all your eyes could do.

hesitating, my arms couldn't move

though in a second I know my heart just shook.

in 360' my eyes seems to be wandering,

can't take this pressure,

it's breaking me to pieces.

where is this feeling coming from, I'm trying to understand. 

though without knowing, it's too late to despair. 

The heart is trapped, it's no longer free, but I know in my heart,

it was taken in sincerity.

 

over and done with...

 

 

what moves me to tears is something I've caused

what I can't seem to realize now will haunt me in the end

happiness in you is something I can't buy

I wish to be yours, now and forever more.

lead me not to more than what I can bear

it's getting more dark here, I can't seem to see a thing

I'm in it deep, drowning even deeper

though I keep praying, that one day, it will all be over and done with....

your presence

sitting here, longing.
looking up, hoping
it's coming down uncontrollably,
lighting strikes, can't feel a thing now...
in a trance, in denial, is this even possible?
baffled by this ordeal! can't seem to let go
but knowing your love, it was always present from the very beginning!

something that's going to last

It's breaking me down slowly

but I think I'm finding my way back to you

just little small baby step, it's all that matters

never straying from you however always longing

that is how it should be, that was always your request

this is something we shouldn't forget, this is something that's going to last.

..just want to shout it out loud!

Finding words to describe
how this situation came about
which way is right for me
which road will make me whole
do I pray and pray some more,
just how patient can a person be?

how to overcome this sorrow?
lost? I think it's way past due...
not quite sure of what one should do?!