make me believe

Recycling what is in my head

even with new words, everything is still the same.

same heart, same feelings... what direction could this be going?

pulling me back without an inch of effort.

falling back to the same old trap, you're holding me back once more.

words are just words, I shouldn't believe it...

what is needed is something more, it can't be describe with just plain old words...

show it to me, prove me wrong! make me whole again, make me eat my words...

Never hopeless

Days goes by, worldly affairs is involved.

disconnected, with no sense of reality...

truth discovered yet ignored, left untreated once more.

his grace and forgiveness planted in us will not wither away

It's there to stay, comfort souls in need of redemption.

so young and restless, but in him NEVER hopeless.

winter 2006 - oh the memories!

ticking sounds

Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock

movement of sharp object, accessing the head.

motion in the room, in every direction possible.

ready for relaxation, sweet thoughts of soothing entrees raising bars in my head.

control and command is in full control, ready for his words, I sit here to ponder...

will this degrading soul ever come to its full potential of receiving your love?

life goes on, even without you...

...Don't be so nice I'll keep wanting for more, don't be so mean you're jabbing through my soul.

I hate it when you smile, you make me want to cry. I love it when you laugh, they joy is a rush for my frail heart. We should have stayed apart, I think I can let go, I'm here to bid you goodbye..today, tomorrow and forevermore.

Forgiveness.

It takes many failures to find the right one, so they say...
I guess that is why they call it the "Right" one.
we go through life thinking that falling in love is the best thing
that could ever happen to us, but do we ever wonder how many heartbreak
one can experience to finally find the right one?

what does it take for someone to really capture your heart? is it really a matter of just personality?compatibility? physical features? I'm sure all of these things contribute to what we look for in finding the right one? y/n

these are just some of the questions that comes to mind when I see some of my friend's fall in love
or go through a heartbreak. Indirect experience of a heartbreak is by no means in the same level of someone who has actually experience it themselves, but it sure can effect you in some way if not another.

looking at them dealing with the whole situation is heartbreaking even after the matter has been put to the past. Loathing someone who you once loved is just one of the hardest thing a person can experience, but learning to forgive them is a gift from god that enables you to grow and learn from that mistake.

No matter how hard it is, at the end of the day, you will realize that the only way to finally be at peace, is to learn how to Forgive and move on.

.Undeserving.

Torn feeling inside, leads me to destruction

just when I'm led to the worst, I am drawn back & reconstructed

voices in my head, it comes and goes

tears can't be stopped, it's pouring down like rain.

unworthy of your love, I'm undeserving of anything from you

I'm fighting battles, it's taking over my life

all that I need, all that I long for is right here with me in spirit.

Grasp,perceived.acceptance.

curiosity seems to have taken over my head

heart wrenching, a black and white feeling.

decisions can't be made, this dilemma is overwhelming.

you are there and I am here.

we are not one, apart more and more.

thought it was you, only to be frustrated by what was answered.

morning and night, it just builds up inside.

truth is now revealed, grasp by the hand, perceived, and live with it to no end.