pretend

...Thinking slowly, breathing heavily, the heart is still not steady.

suffocating my mind, every single thought is apparent to the heart.

Ignoring, but knowing it's slowly breaking into pieces...

the heart is pretending, possibly in denial of everything..

fear of what's to come ahead, scared of falling to the ground.

the crack was obvious from the start, ready to break...any minute..any second now...

...we're better off this way

It's all so twisted and difficult

..didn't realize goodbye was this painful,

maybe this was all part of the plan

everything would end just as fast as it started.

this time it's for real

there's no more words to reveal.

no more wondering and hoping

there's no more tear left to shed,

I think we should end this for good... we're probably better off this way anyways.

..time will tell

      Your words were like missiles, aiming straight for my heart.
..without hesitation, I sat there confused, but more appalled. I had no clear response, too
caught off guard to even react. You were so confident in your words and I was too
embarrassed to admit I wanted you from the start.
...that night we let everything go, was the night I've learned to realized it's now too late to stop,
it's now or never, we've became too attached. You kissed me hard, I could almost feel my nerve detached.
The feeling was so real, I didn't want it to end. How and Why these questions still lingers? like they say...

I guess time will tell, No?

Void.

What realization do I really need?

Life is passing by and I'm nowhere near the finish line.

prayers are not answered, I'm losing all directions.

where is my happiness, and where do I find it?

this is why I need you, every second of the day, 24/7,

your presence in my heart, is what I need to fill this void.