He is present.

What is there to love more than that of the one who saved us.

laying here, praying and hoping to be forgiven.

in silence but not in restlessness.

shedding a tear, but in him it's all right.

he see's through the hurt, the fear, the loneliness of your heart.

he hears your cries, your praises, even in the silence of the night.

YOU, the one hungry for LOVE, look for him every minute,seconds of the day.

He is present today, tomorrow, through infinity and beyond....

Remember

Is this really time to say goodbye?
It seems like forever doesn't exist for you and I.
can you just erase me from your head and mind,
I don't want to be known as the girl you broke apart.

 I pray that you'll at least remember me,
as a friend or maybe even a girl you've met along the way,
but know it in your heart, I have no regrets but only love,
like you once told me, that one time when we said our goodbyes.

a light will shine on through

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, so they say...

Why does time seem to skip a turn, a prisoner of its own term.

The horizon so far in the distance, just how much longer till the pain wither.

Contemplating her very existence, what this heart needs is more than just a reason.

Looking up, she's waiting to be rescued,

 ...hoping in that very moment, a light will shine on through.

we'll soon be forgotten

     What it all comes down to in the end, is nothing but a dream.

We'll soon be forgotten, disappear in this moonless night.

The thought of your kiss, warmth but burns deep inside my sleep.

When will my freedom come, when will this suffering come to an end.

.....I'm stuck, not brave enough to face the truth.

come say it to my face,don't hold anything back, for this is your last chance to make it right.

Blackout.

Too young, that must have been what was on their mind...

without them knowing, the memories will haunt them till the end of time.

blackout, they're avoiding what's there from the start.

the taste of it, the feel of it, it's still fresh.... buried in, inside of their mind.

the future, can it come soon enough? before they realize is now to late to react.

too young to feel, that must have been what everyone thought ?

who really knows right? but the two restless mind

................... time will come soon enough

before they realize, they were meant to be, right from the start.

what do you call this type of suffering?

Too much to say, it's draining everything inside my head.

A broken heart, A Broken mind, too much has been mistreated.

world is caving in, what do you call this type of suffering?

The sky turns blue, this heart just won't concur. 

I've done and said all I can, slowly now... falling deep.... so blurry...

nothing seems apparent anymore .....

pretend

...Thinking slowly, breathing heavily, the heart is still not steady.

suffocating my mind, every single thought is apparent to the heart.

Ignoring, but knowing it's slowly breaking into pieces...

the heart is pretending, possibly in denial of everything..

fear of what's to come ahead, scared of falling to the ground.

the crack was obvious from the start, ready to break...any minute..any second now...

...we're better off this way

It's all so twisted and difficult

..didn't realize goodbye was this painful,

maybe this was all part of the plan

everything would end just as fast as it started.

this time it's for real

there's no more words to reveal.

no more wondering and hoping

there's no more tear left to shed,

I think we should end this for good... we're probably better off this way anyways.

..time will tell

      Your words were like missiles, aiming straight for my heart.
..without hesitation, I sat there confused, but more appalled. I had no clear response, too
caught off guard to even react. You were so confident in your words and I was too
embarrassed to admit I wanted you from the start.
...that night we let everything go, was the night I've learned to realized it's now too late to stop,
it's now or never, we've became too attached. You kissed me hard, I could almost feel my nerve detached.
The feeling was so real, I didn't want it to end. How and Why these questions still lingers? like they say...

I guess time will tell, No?

Void.

What realization do I really need?

Life is passing by and I'm nowhere near the finish line.

prayers are not answered, I'm losing all directions.

where is my happiness, and where do I find it?

this is why I need you, every second of the day, 24/7,

your presence in my heart, is what I need to fill this void. 

My Sincere Apology

I'm Writing to you, a sincere apology.

for showing the world, a man's true identity.

though you might have been distraught, or even more ashamed.

It meant the world to me, that you were also feeling my pain.

I can't put to words, all the feelings that I felt for you,

but know it in your heart that this one is sincere and true.

Oh how I wish to embrace this feeling directly to you,

just to see a little glimpse of your reaction, was it all true?

but it seems that wish has been rejected,

you're now too far for me to see, to touch, let alone to feel.

Our only way?

When we part ways

That's when reality sets in the air.

When I see you fade away

That's how much you've been erased.

This world that we live in knows no mercy, only cry

...for this kind of love only exist in another world that is not ours.

What do I do to make you mine,

When the whole world seems to block you out of my mind.

Too many restriction, I cannot comprehend.

The world that we live in just don't understand.

I could go on and on for what seem to break our ways,

but what I really want to know is "Is this really our only way?"

A closer look

Taking one more closer look

that was all your eyes could do.

hesitating, my arms couldn't move

though in a second I know my heart just shook.

in 360' my eyes seems to be wandering,

can't take this pressure,

it's breaking me to pieces.

where is this feeling coming from, I'm trying to understand. 

though without knowing, it's too late to despair. 

The heart is trapped, it's no longer free, but I know in my heart,

it was taken in sincerity.

 

over and done with...

 

 

what moves me to tears is something I've caused

what I can't seem to realize now will haunt me in the end

happiness in you is something I can't buy

I wish to be yours, now and forever more.

lead me not to more than what I can bear

it's getting more dark here, I can't seem to see a thing

I'm in it deep, drowning even deeper

though I keep praying, that one day, it will all be over and done with....

your presence

sitting here, longing.
looking up, hoping
it's coming down uncontrollably,
lighting strikes, can't feel a thing now...
in a trance, in denial, is this even possible?
baffled by this ordeal! can't seem to let go
but knowing your love, it was always present from the very beginning!

something that's going to last

It's breaking me down slowly

but I think I'm finding my way back to you

just little small baby step, it's all that matters

never straying from you however always longing

that is how it should be, that was always your request

this is something we shouldn't forget, this is something that's going to last.

..just want to shout it out loud!

Finding words to describe
how this situation came about
which way is right for me
which road will make me whole
do I pray and pray some more,
just how patient can a person be?

how to overcome this sorrow?
lost? I think it's way past due...
not quite sure of what one should do?!

memories

the story of us that's written in my head
faded into reality, nonexistent nevertheless.

there was a story about you and I
in the olden days, in the times when we played.

the future never foretold our fate
though the laughter seems to have it all played out in display.

swaying in motion, singing in liberty,
there was a sense of tranquility

looking pass all the things, it is all just  a memory in my book.

..am here

...take me away to a higher place

justify your presence in my soul

fill the void in my human heart

ears and hands are wide open

more ready than ever

take it all away

am here...

open.

crashed, trampled, and left without a care.

sinking lower and deeper in desperation.

sadness that overwhelms the soul.

silently calling out, seeking, but not really looking.

waiting, hoping, and praying for a deeper meaning.... 

can you hear it now? the feeling is now all out in the open.

comes and goes

This feeling needs its freedom from the likes of you.

It's ready for the truth, please don't hold it out any longer.

Soothing sound of air taking over the mind.

Crying for the moment, absurd, when holding it in just doesn't work.

those sweetened days ends unintentionally... once the hands can no longer reach.

the mind just cannot comprehend, why such feelings comes and goes..even till the end

bitter sensation

It's like another bitter sensation of so many different feelings.

Had it before, just not with you.

Losing oneself, it seemed to have let it all astray.

Aching doesn't justify the trumping feeling of the heart.

If this is falling apart than it must have happened more than once.

there's no need to say it, no need for any more drama.

The heart seems to want, what it can never posses. 

 

this time around

what a random meet that was, yes?

didn't think we would hit it off, but nonetheless ....

She was blinded by experience

Thought it was different this time around

wrong again! why does it still surprise her?

she's over it, time to get over it!

for those days were just an illusion now that she's moving on...

one day....

It's amazing how much she gives herself away when love sways in

Without realizing she's giving more than she has ever had

He comes in, swept her off her feet yet thinking of someone else.

It's just another perfect lie, not a fairytale, not your typical happy ending.

The beat just keeps on beating, till one day she realize, is this all worth it?

We all have been through it, those unrequited love is one of those life experience that we'll all go through.

One day your turn will arise, he knows what's best for you, it's all planned out for you.

set your worries aside, never give up your faith. it's all in the making, so don't you worry no more.

this heart

This heart has been played with too many times

Mending the pain and sadness, I'm but immune to it all

There's no sense in dwelling about it now

One day you'll realize everything you feel has disappeared.

And maybe one day they'll realize what they missed out on.

farewell

Enough of everything, there's nothing left to dwell about.

You and I have lived through different things.

You know me inside and out, but can't seem to get the word out.

It really did tear me apart, but now I understand why we're just on the outs.

It just can never be, too similar, not one is willing to let it go.

it's all for the best, we just weren't made for each other.

Imperfection.

I think I've had enough for now

It's always the same old thing

just when you've opened up your heart for one last try

they shattered it so coldly with no regrets.

my heart is blue, no soul left to feel alive.

I've come to realize there are things that will not go your way

things that will break you to pieces, but build you up in the very end.

it's all so colorless, so bland, with no life.

it only comes alive with the help of the creator.

I sing my song, my song to you...

with so much passion, I close my eyes to the imperfection.

foolishness

It's all passing by like lighting on rainy days.

this world could just be taken away from us any seconds now.

I know it's tearing us apart, it sure is killing me inside.

I can hear it cracking now, eventually it's going to go away no?

is everything really enough, is all this foolishness really worth our time?

you've gave me the world, but I think it's all been taken away from me.

everything is just all wrong, how can we go back now....

and ACTION!

Mutually we're both there, don't you think so?

It must be that mind games we're playing, no?

There's just too much pride there from the both of us.

No one is watching but we're both the main characters.

The film is still rolling, so I guess we're just going to keep on playing. 

♥♥♥♥♥♥ this song!

 He is We - "A mess it grows"

January Sky

January sky, so dark and gloomy.

glimmering night sky covered by fog and rain.

everything just takes over, even the smallest of the feelings.

what are you thinking? what are you doing?

I long to know and hear your stories.

that sad and gloomy look written on your face,

can I make your sorrows and pain go away?

I'm always here, my heart is always waiting.

you'll always have me, I want you to know.

still here waiting, until I'm no longer called your way.

I'm still here

Dreading of what's to come

drowning in sorrows of sanity.

I'm still here, still keeping my promises.

holding on to reality, not letting it break me.

it's your love and sincerity that gets me every time.

its sweet melody sings to me, in all places... all the time.

not a drip more...

I walked through the night, mending this broken heart.

traveling through the light, black holes caught me off guard.

everything seems too easy before, the road so perfect and clear.

this untamed feelings is not easy to forget,

you have no right to trample all over it.

the feeling is dead, not a drip more or less.

the heart remembers

I can see right through you, your eyes are so transparent.

glimmering light shines through them, piercing right to the heart.

I haven't forgotten everything, it's all still plastered in my mind.

 different colors, shapes and sizes...they just come alive.

those things stays with you, they don't just fade away.

The mind wants to forget, but the heart chooses remember.

emptiness and remorse

Under the night sky, wide awake, not able to sleep.

everything flashes like lightning, and I don't mean sheep!

I lift my eyes up, and look on up to you.

How are you? How is everything with you?

I asked with such emptiness and  remorse.

....weary and weak, I should just keep on looking down.

Questions that are still left unanswered, has become that of a burden.

still waiting, though you know it will happen in your time. 

just fade away

A new beginning and so I thought.

gloomy or sunny, it's just not enough

till death do us part, as promising as it sounds...

what doesn't come through, just doesn't exist.

the end is nearer, the pain seems to have fade away. 

It's all planned out, nothing is ever as it seems.