Hope

My heart is breaking, for my loved ones are suffering.

only in you will I give my life

you are infinite, more than I ever need.

be with us in this time of sadness.

for Hope and Perseverance can only happen through you my God.

Glory is to you

Coming forth and confessing all my suffering.

holding it all in just wasn't going through.

Learning to love myself is what I've long to do.

through pain and suffering, I want to prevail all evil.

Grace is given to me for free, you've saved me once again for all I do.

oh GOD all my glory is to you, the one who came and kept me anew. 

the obvious.

Sometimes you wonder why you holds on to the little things,
even when it's complicated, you choose to stray away from him and ignore the obvious.
you sing & declare to live in him, but in the end doing the opposite.
you come to realize in the end you're still hurting,
not feeling any better than before, repeating the same thing all over again...
then you wonder why haven't anything change? why do you feel like you're always stuck in a rut.
then you cry out to him, asking why is this happening to you? what did you do to possibly deserve this
type of punishment?!? ...God is never punishing you, he is clearly showing you that you have ignore all his signs of love towards you, choosing to be in denial, not trusting in his words. God is always with you, he's always in your heart, but he gives you a choice to seek him, because he will only come to those who seek in him. God is always there, present inside your heart.

MY.

My Walk with you will not be easy but victorious.
My Faith will be forever more richer than all things seen.
My Love growing bolder and stronger in your name.
My Hope in you binds tightly and never ending.
My Life I live for you till this day and for all eternity. 

Love and forgiveness

(rough translation of my cousin's Indonesian Quote)

In the calmness of the heart, there is honesty.
when there is no richness, there is an abounding heart.
In a lifeless body, there is a confident soul

this Life is beautiful, when LOVE is present!

sometimes the eyes is misled,
sometimes the lips will deceive,
and at times, the heart will judge...

still this Life is beautiful, When you learn to FORGIVE!

(The Indonesian version)

 Dalam keteduhan hati,ada ketulusan budi.
Dalam kemiskinan harta,ada kekayaan hati.
Dalam kerapuhan raga,ada ketegaran jiwa.....Hidup ini indah,bila ada Kasih!!!.
Kadang,mata salah melihat.Kadang, mulut salah berucap.
Kadang,hati salah menduga.... Hidup ini indah,bila ada Pengampunan!!!.

He's REAL

He keeps loving me throughout this ordeal.

His affection are real, it's crystal clear

His presence is always present, right there to be found

His love is planted in my heart, growing every single day

He's always there, he never disappears.

infinite love

She knew nothing more than what was taught.

no real experience to come and say it out loud.

the night it happened, all she could do was call out HIS name.

throughout the days, weeks, months asking...

why was such pain and suffering  held against her?

mixed of emotion, scared out of her mind, confused what she had done wrong.

this was all part of his plan, for her to realize his love will never end but infinite. 

In Time of Sickness

O Jesus, You suffered and died for us; You understand suffering; Teach me to understand my suffering as You do; to bear it in union with You, to offer it with You to atone for my sins, and to bring Your grace to souls in need. Calm my fears; increase my trust. May I gladly accept Your holy will and become more like You in trial. If it be Your will, restore me to health so that I may work for Your honor and glory and the salvation of all. Amen.

hold my own

I want to be strong, be able to hold my own.

standing up tall and proud of what you've made me become.

showing the world infinite capabilities blessed by you,

loved and the peace of mind I once longed for graced by you.

where?

she is  heartless, there's no sense of direction.

hunger, thirst for you love in this time of misconception.

she's stuck in a rabbit hole, no way out.

confused, mind in a ramble, all she could do is cry her eyes out.

where is the rope? to pull her out...

where is her strength? to build her confidence once more

where is her heart? to keep her going

where is her faith? to keep her from straying

where is her god? he's always there, waiting inside her heart.

to a new beginning

Here's to a new beginning, a new different feeling.

feeling of peace and tranquility, the kind you wish for eternity.

what's done is done, there's no such thing as a reset button.

everything has passed and the lesson is learned.

he knows every mistake that has been committed 

erased every single sins, coming to repent is what he longs for you to do.